web of lies
i hate being lied to. .
weeellll, i know at some point in our lives weve managed a little white lie or an outright pangingilad to some of the people who cared for us 
.. but being lied to, deliberately without any reason and no justification whatosever is soooo not cool..
i find myself asking this question.. "why did he had to lie??" and the answer just popped out at me in the tv show that i was trying hard to focus on.. "FEAR" is the answer..
a lot of us might not admit it, but the only reason that we ever lie is because of FEAR. fear of being ridiculed, of getting the same old scolding, of getting the same comments, of being an outcast, etc, ladidah…
i guess it was my fault that i was being my usual kulit self and he was cornerned and he was forced to give out an answer to a question that he was never prepared to answer in the first place.. thus the LIE..
then the confrontation.. i hate that!!!! they always start this game of lying and here i am, a fool, who play the game head-on with no inkling whatsover about the heartache and the crushing pain that tags along with it.. PUCHA!!!! oh yeah, the confrontation? he admitted it all.. the lies and the hiding behind me back.. whoooh… you should have seen the sheepish look he gave me… could’ve fooled me…
he gave me a pack of alibis, a case of excuses and a thousand sorries if you could count.. and lil old me believed in it.. i choose to forget everything that ive seen, heard and found out.. its better that way…
the thing is, i dont wana be angry.. anger is fruitless for me, especially for me since i always forget who i was angry at, and more importantly, why…….
in the words of the famous wise Jedi master: "fear is the path to anger, anger leads to pain, pain leads to suffering!" or somekinda like that.. and who would want to suffer? i dont!!!! i have suffered enough and my tears cannot be paid for ever again by some sweet talk..
so i am making a big deal out of it.. and so what?? I HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO, DAMMIT!!! you might not see my point in all this crazy talk and i don’t care! i just wana vent and let it all out.. otherwise, you might see me one of these days, holding a beer bottle and going a lil crazy… to hell with it!!! I WOULD RATHER HAVE A BEER INSTEAD!!!!
